For Stacey Anderson the agony of not knowing is the worst. Five years ago her beloved grandparents Charlie and Gayle, 71 and 74, were brutally murdered in Jamaica, just a few weeks after discovering their life savings had been stolen.
They'd been shot and severely beaten before their bodies were dumped in their fire-bombed home. No has ever been arrested for their murders.
Speaking on the fifth anniversary of their deaths Stacey, 35, said: "We still don't know what happened, so the grieving process hasn't happened properly for us. It's still raw. It's incredibly traumatising to live with every day of our lives."
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Mr and Mrs Anderson, who were known as Charlie and Gayle, had sold their home in Gorton and moved to Jamaica just over a year before they were killed. It had long been Mr Anderson's dream to return to the island of his birth.
A builder by trade, he moved from Jamaica to the UK aged 17 as part of the Windrush generation and settled in Moss Side. He met Mrs Anderson, a factory manager and shop worker, just a few months later and the couple married in 1962.
Following their retirement they moved to an eight bedroom house Mr Anderson had built himself in the Portland area of Jamaica, where they hoped to live comfortably on the proceeds on the house sale.
But on Easter Sunday 2018, about eight weeks before their deaths, the couple discovered around £100,000 had been taken from their bank account. They returned to the UK to meet with the bank and flew back to Jamaica at the beginning of June, apparently satisfied at least some of the money would be refunded.
But on June 22 they were discovered dead at their home, which Jamaican police said had been set on fire by a petrol bomb thrown through a window. Mr Anderson's body was found about 40m away from the house.
He had been severely beaten about the head, his body had been set on fire and he also had a gunshot wound to his left hand. Mrs Anderson's body was later found about 20ft from the house. She had been shot in the face and her body had also been partially burned.
Just 48 hours earlier Gayle had told police the name of a man she believed had siphoned tens of thousands of pounds from their bank. An inquest into their deaths in September 2020 heard that Saquino Farr, who had been employed by Mrs and Anderson to do odd jobs around the house, had been arrested on suspicion of fraud in connection with the missing money.
His case is still going through the Jamaican court system, the family say. But no-one has ever been charged in connection with Mr and Mrs Anderson's deaths
Stacey, of Clayton Bridge, said: "In short nothing has happened since the inquest in September 2020. We have continued to meet with Jamaican police online, but there has been no arrests, no charges.
"At the last meeting they implied that while the case is still open it's no longer active. It's been really, really frustrating."
The fifth anniversary of the murders has been made all the more difficult by it coinciding with commemorations to mark the Windrush generation 75 years after the first crossing from the Caribbean. Stacey says she had to decline an invitation to a Windrush event at work as she feared it would be too emotional for her to attend.
As a young mixed race couple in 1960s Manchester, Stacey says her grandparents faced discrimination, even going so far as to change their names to Charlie and Gayle, while out together.
She said: "We are on the cusp of losing that generation of people who paved the way for everybody else. It must have been incredibly difficult for my grandma and grandad.
"They were very brave. They were married very young."
Stacey says the family still haven't been able to retrieve Mr and Mrs Anderson's belongings and have not been able to recover the stolen money. And she says she is too scared to visit the house her grandfather built
She said: "The house is still there, we haven't done anything with it. But I'm frightened to go over there, because the people who did are dangerous and they're still out there.
"That makes me really sad because I'm proud of my heritage and I want to go and experience it."
The family have previously spoken of fears a 'wall of silence' is protecting the killers and their frustrations at the investigation's lack of progress. But five years on Stacey say they remain determined as ever to get justice.
She said: "My grandparents were were still young and active. They would have had more great grandchildren, they were robbed of all those opportunities in their lives. It's heartwrenching.
"I still have all of the fight in me to get justice, but I don't have much faith in the system - I really don't. But we want to keep the story alive because we hope someone will speak up one day.
"We have had enough taken away from us. We want a bit of peace in getting a conviction. It would mean so much because justice has to be served."
A Foreign and Commonwealth Office spokesperson said: "We continue to provide consular assistance to the family of a British man and woman who were killed in Jamaica in 2018."
The Jamaican High Commission has been contacted for comment.
