‘I looked exceptional but I was out of breath’: the bodybuilder who switched to mindful movement

Eugene Teo: ‘My body is definitely smaller. But performance-wise, feeling-wise – it’s night and day better.’ Photograph: David Kelly/The Guardian

Eugene Teo, 34, began lifting weights at the age of 13, looking for validation. “I was short, skinny and I thought it would give me confidence,” he says. “Bodybuilding for me was the ultimate expression of that.”

Now living on the Gold Coast in Australia, with his partner and daughter, the fitness coach spent from age 16 to 24 training and competing. At times, he lifted weights for up to four hours a day, aiming to get as muscular and lean as possible. The ideal he was chasing? “If you grab your eyelid and feel that skin,” he says, “that’s the skin thinness you want on your bum and abs.”