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The Guardian - UK
The Guardian - UK
Entertainment
Jeffrey Ingold

Watching Brokeback Mountain kept me in the closet

Two men in cowboy hats from Brokeback Mountain embrace above a silhouetted figure walking toward a prismatic diamond
Cowboy dreams … ‘My whole body burned with shame as I ran out of the room.’ Illustration: Martin O'Neill/The Guardian

I was 14 years old the first time I saw two men kiss on screen. It was 2006, and my mum had rented Brokeback Mountain from our local Blockbuster. She said it was a “special” movie night for “just the two of us”.

For the next 134 minutes, I watched two sheep herders, Ennis Del Mar (Heath Ledger) and Jack Twist (Jake Gyllenhaal), fall in love in the beautiful Wyoming countryside, only for that love to be suffocated by rigid expectations of masculinity and self-contempt. The film culminates in Jack’s untimely death, and alludes to the possibility that he was the victim of a vicious homophobic hate crime.

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