Vicky Pattison broke down as she opened up about her fear of becoming an alcoholic like her father amid her own turbulent relationship with booze.
The ex-Geordie Shore star, 34, was tearful as she appeared on The One Show yesterday to speak about her new documentary My Dad: Alcohol and Me.
Speaking to hosts Alex Scott and Ronan Keating, she explained that she had always had a "complicated" relationship with alcohol and that she is finally able to talk about it.
"I'm 35 this year," she said. "That was exactly when my dad started really to lose his battle with his addiction.
"That's terrifying for me. I'm very well aware that my turbulent relationship with alcohol has got us into trouble in the past and been a concern.
"I couldn't get the thought out of my mind that this year it was all going to unravel, it felt like this predetermined conclusion and no matter how I tried – no matter how many yoga retreats how many smoothies I drank or sober Octobers I did, I was just going to end up the same."
A clip also showed Vicky opening up to her mother Caroll, admitting that she has to "work really hard" to be this version of herself.
Speaking in the studio, Vicky says her life with fiancé Ercan Ramadan has grounded her and that she is now able to speak about her demons.
She said: "I think when you're opening up and being really vulnerable, you have to be in a really strong place mentally, and over the years I probably haven't been.
"I've had my own demons, a complicated relationship with alcohol and not a very grounded personal life.
"Now [I've got] a lovely fella, a great dog, a great support system. It felt like I was strong enough to talk about these things."
