Papa Roach vocalist Jacoby Shaddix has revealed his sobriety and faith in God has been like a "wrestling match" over the last 13 years.
The singer, whose drinking exploits once earned him the nickname Jonny Vodka, made the decision to get sober in early 2012. In a recent podcast interview, he admitted that his resolution to maintain a dry lifestyle was gradually strengthened by his Christian faith – but it was not always the case.
"I started going to meetings and going to recovery houses and stuff like that," Shaddix told Dumb Blonde podcast presenter Bunnie XO (as transcribed by Blabbermouth). "And they're, like, 'You need to find God or a God of your understanding.' And it was a journey for me for years.
"I'll tell you: the two things I never wanted to be in my life was sober and a Christian," he adds. "And here I am now — a follower, a sober guy. But it was a rocky path to find that, and a lot of failure and a lot of questioning. Turning my will over to God and following and then taking it all back and then living my way and then repeatedly finding myself just in that deep dark hole. And when I finally put the bottle down and really, it was like that foxhole prayer, where I'm just, like, 'God, do you just hear me? Can you hear me? I need a miraculous change. I need something beyond what I can do.' 'Cause I kept trying to control the change in my life. And it just — the walls fell."
