Political pressure is great. Bullying MPs like me at home is utterly wrong

Commons speaker Sir Lindsay Hoyle. ‘Improvements that he fought for mean that today I feel safer, or at least when I am scared, there is somewhere to turn.’ Photograph: Yui Mok/PA

Last week, someone didn’t just wish me to feel pain now. Their hope was that in the afterlife I would experience eternal suffering. Ten out of 10 for flair. Someone once sent me an email about which of my orifices they would like to pour molten metal into – it was all of them, described in glorious detail.

I have a special file of restraining orders – I felt weird putting them with my other important documents. It didn’t seem fitting to file them next to my sons’ birth certificates. Multiple men have served time in prison for attacks or threats of attacks on me. One remains in prison today, serving a 10-year sentence for various crimes against me and others.