A man has opened up about the tragic day his father died at his wedding four years ago. After years of his dad asking when Noshad Qayyum was going to get married, he finally announced the news at the age of 41.
His dad was just 64 years old when he suffered a heart attack minutes into the wedding speech and despite the efforts of the paramedics, he died. And in that moment Noshad's entire life turned upside down.
His father spent his life as a public speaker, working as a BBC broadcaster and later as a financial advisor so when things didn't seem right, Noshad knew something was very wrong. His father had begun to slur his speech and was unusually sat down reports LeedsLive.
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Noshad, now 45, from Leeds had followed in his father's footsteps also working as a broadcaster and later as a teacher and counsellor. He and his dad parted ways somewhat when Noshad turned 20 but they still maintained contact.
He said: “He was quite traditional, he was always asking when are you gonna get married and soon as I told him, he was the happiest on the planet. Sadly, I didn't get to spend much time with him over the two weeks I was back from working abroad, I only saw him on the day of the wedding.
"I think as soon as he came on stage he was having the heart attack. He was slurring and sat down and he never sat down when speaking. Just four minutes into the speech, he collapsed and died of a heart attack but prior to that he had come on stage to kiss me on the forehead. He was literally next to my best man, public speaking was his full-time job and he was the happiest man I’ve ever seen with all his friends and family.”
Following the events of his wedding day, Noshad found his relationships with family and friends began to struggle and a year later he got divorced. He said: “I don’t know what happened to me, I was just sat and that’s when the trauma started. For me, it was like watching something from Holby City, I became a fly on the wall not knowing how this was going to affect me afterwards.”
After 40 minutes of compressions, the paramedics stopped and his father was taken to the hospital. Despite all of this, he still had the ceremony to get married. Noshad said: “As soon as the ceremony was over I went and saw him cold and lifeless on a steel plate.”
Witnessing his father's death was like opening Pandora's Box and afterwards, Noshad suffered from severe mental health issues. He began having panic attacks caused by the Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and with it came some very difficult trauma, over the past three years Noshad said he tried to end his own life on two occasions.
However, he thankfully got support for his mental health and although he still struggles, he is doing better. He's in the process of setting up his own mental health charity and spoke of the stigmas often attached to men going through difficult times.
He said: “I’m glad that I reached out at an early stage but even though I did receive help, it still didn’t fill that void. There’s a stigma and stereotype that men can deal with this but inside I was just crumbling like a house of cards. I was going through everything to heal physically, mentally and spiritually, I tried everything but it was still really difficult so I decided to channel my grief and step one was forgiving myself."
Following the events of his wedding day, Noshad began getting involved with various mental health charities such as Calm and WeEvolve Leeds. He spent time getting the help he needed and started taking courses so that he could, in time, help others.
"Through what I was doing, I thought I needed to setup something because especially in Yorkshire and Leeds there is a higher rate of suicide above the national average," Noshad said. Following his work with these charities, he was appointed a non-voluntary director for Human's Being, helping to further the work being done to help men and women with mental health support.
Now, four years on he says he is in a better place and is very thankful that he reached out for help. He said: "I feel liberated, I feel I am in a much better place, had I not processed what happened or reached out for help I wouldn’t be here.
“By talking, by reaching out for help and knowing what’s available I managed to get through it thanks to family, friends and organisations. I realise a lot of people don’t have access to that, there’s a lot of people who I know who have committed suicide over the past few years, they just weren’t diagnosed in time and I can say, that I now know enough to help people."
Noshad's story is now being made into a book through the help of StoryTerrace, a national-biography writing service that promotes an open conversation to discuss mental health. Noshad will also be working on podcasts and launching his charity, WeEvolve, in the future.
