Louise Thompson confesses that she's worried her life is "running away" without her after she nearly died in childbirth.
In a touching post, Louise shared her fears with her fans and shared an adorable photo of her son Leo-Hunter Libbey.
The new mum who has been open about her battle with PTSD wrote: "One of the things that makes me most sad about my childbirth experience is the fact that only one friend has got to meet this little guy in nearly three months …
"I’m worried life is running away without me. I honestly feel like all my plans for 2022 and my world have been shattered into a million pieces. Sometimes it’s so hard to be strong."
Fans flocked to comfort the star, with one saying: "Try not to be so hard on yourself, you are doing amazingly!”
Another shared her own experiences: "As a mum of 3 who has suffered terribly after each birth, I can assure you those early months are about getting you back.
"The baby WILL meet everyone and you guys will be so in love. He will not have missed a thing - he has all he needs and more!!"
The reality star, 31, who gave birth in November suffered "various serious complications" which saw her "dancing with death" during the dramatic labour.
The former Made in Chelsea star said the horrific ordeal was a "stark reminder of how short and sacred life really is."
Doctors worked "through the night" to save Louise's life, for which she praised the NHS.
"Honestly where would we be without the NHS? I know where I would be,"
She announced the birth of her "miracle" son with friends just two days before Christmas Day.
"5 weeks ago I gave birth to my beautiful baby boy Leo-Hunter Libbey weighing in at 7lbs. Unfortunately it wasn’t the easiest start for either of us.
"One ended up in NICU and the other ended up in ICU," she told her 1.3 million Instagram followers.
She said that little Leo-Hunter made a "fairly quick" recovery, but she was left "battling so many things".
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"To dance with death twice brings a whole new view of the world," she admitted in a post.
Despite being able to come home in time for the festivities, after being concerned about Covid-19, Louise, her partner Ryan Libbey and Leo were unable to see friends and family.
"It certainly wasn’t the Christmas that we had planned, but then again neither were the last three and I’m still feeling overwhelmingly blessed to be at home and in my little bubble," she wrote within a lengthy caption of a photo of her in a wheelchair.
Louise shared the news that she was pregnant in May, after she had sadly suffered a miscarriage at the start of the year.
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