Louise Thompson penned a lengthy post about suffering from a 'weird form of dementia' as she explained her memory loss and struggles.
The star went through the traumatic birth of her first baby where she nearly died twice and has been left with a string of health issues.
She has been updating fans on her slow progress to recovery but was recently re-admitted to the hospital after receiving 'alarming blood results'.
On Wednesday, the former Made In Chelsea star took to Instagram to explain she's been 'blocking everything out' and how she's completely forgotten things from certain parts of her life.
"I’m at a weird stage now where I’m blocking everything out," she said. "Maybe I said that way back at the beginning? I can’t actually remember much because I’m still trying to protect myself from the pain. I don’t want to re-read.
"This condition feels very repetitive. Finally it DOES feel like everything happened a long time ago but it also feels like it happened to someone else and not me. I kind of feel like I’ve erased my entire past and started life as a totally new person.
"A sometimes sick person. People tell me how far I’ve come, but I can’t remember how far. I can remember a weird amount of things from my childhood… sensory things will remind me of the strangest memories from way back when I was 5-15, but then I’ve sort of erased everything between then and now."
She continued: "Now that I mention it, sometimes ALL I can feel is sensory stuff, like the feeling I get when I go from a hot room to a cold room and it helps me connect to the world around me.
"To put it bluntly I’m struggling to move on with ‘normal’ life. Every day I feel physically very unwell and every other day I seem to have an hour long period (sometimes longer) where I feel messed up in my brain - I don’t know what it is, but it feels like brain damage or a mini stroke. Maybe it’s a weird processing experience.
"It feels like I’m either really REALLY low in some specific chemical/hormone or way too high. But either way I can’t think properly or talk properly during those episodes. It sort of feels like I’m having a major allergic reaction to something in my brain.
"I go from feeling really low and agitated to then feeling a rush of something and then I get the worst cramping around my pelvis but then my brain levels out, a bit like the chemicals have been restored. I’ve been told that this isn’t a result of my mental health medication?!? Can anyone help with the physical side of things?"
She said she has tried many things like tracking her lifestyle or eliminating things but can't figure out what's wrong.
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She went on to explain how sharing her struggles has been helpful and how she's currently in 'an uncomfortable place'.
"I feel like I have a weird form of dementia. If I think of stuff to do today I will completely forget that list tomorrow or even in an hour. In fact I might never remember it. Nothing is ongoing," she said.
"I started the ‘project’ of turning our top room into a child’s bedroom a few weeks ago and I only just remembered that I’d had meetings about it today. Surely that’s not normal? That can’t be baby brain? These are major memory losses between large periods of time. Ryan says I might need to rebuild my brain like a muscle post trauma. That sounds fun, NOT. "
The star recently met up with her agent for a meeting but big things have been overwhelming for her. She also revealed that she 'kind of dreads her life' but will continue to work on her recovery.
Louise told her followers that her fiancé Ryan Libbey also admitted he's been suffering PTSD from the birth and the journey afterwards.
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