It started as a defense, then Doja Cat opened up about ‘agonizing’ lifelong battle that started with living a lie

Doja Cat recently opened up about her lifelong struggle with borderline personality disorder (BPD), revealing she’s “now struggling” with the condition. According to E! Online, the “Paint the Town” rapper shared this deeply personal insight in a candid video on TikTok, where she was defending fellow artist Chappell Roan, who often faces intense scrutiny from paparazzi.

Doja Cat, whose real name is Amala Dlamini, explained that she had learned from a very young age to “pretend that I like stuff, to pretend that I’m happy, to pretend that I don’t like stuff that I do to appear like everything is OK.” She admitted that this pretense eventually “caught up with me.” The 30-year-old artist believes she’s been struggling with the disorder, which is characterized by extreme emotions and impulsiveness, for “probably forever.”