Amber Heard has admitted how she has "so much regret" due to her "horrible" behaviour during her marriage with Johnny Depp.
Following a sensational six-week long trial in Virginia where the Hollywood actors, friends of the pair, expert witnesses and Depp's former partner Kate Moss gave testimony, the Pirates of the Caribbean actor won his defamation case on June 1.
Depp, 58, was awarded compensatory damages of $10million (£8 million) and a further $5 million (£4 million) in punitive damages by a jury.
She was awarded compensatory damages of $2million (£1.6 million) after proving one of her counterclaims to the jury after claiming his legal team falsely accused her of fabricating claims against the actor.
Speaking in her first TV interview since the verdict, Heard told NBC Today's Savannah Guthrie that she never instigated any violence but accepted that the way she acted during the entirety of their "very, very toxic" relationship was regrettable.
"I did do and say horrible, regrettable things throughout my relationship. I behaved in horrible, almost unrecognisable to myself, ways. I have so much regret," she said.
“I freely and hopefully and voluntarily talked about what I did. I talked about the horrible language.
“I talked about being pushed to the extent where I didn't even know the difference between right and wrong.
"I will always continue to feel like I was a part of this, like I was the other half of this relationship because I was. And it was ugly. And could be very beautiful. It was very, very toxic. We were awful to each other.
"I made a lot of mistakes. A lot of mistakes, but I've always told the truth."
Following the verdict Heard said she felt “heartbroken” by the ruling, adding she was "sadder still" that she had "lost a right" to "speak freely and openly".
"The disappointment I feel today is beyond words. I’m heartbroken that the mountain of evidence still was not enough to stand up to the disproportionate power, influence, and sway of my ex-husband," she said in a statement.
"I’m even more disappointed with what this verdict means for other women.
"It is a setback. It sets back the clock to a time when a woman who spoke up and spoke out could be publicly shamed and humiliated.
"It sets back the idea that violence against women is to be taken seriously.
"I believe Johnny’s attorneys succeeded in getting the jury to overlook the key issue of freedom of speech and ignore evidence that was so conclusive that we won in the UK.
"I’m sad I lost this case. But I am sadder still that I seem to have lost a right I thought I had as an American – to speak freely and openly."
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