Allison Holker became "unhirable for a moment" after the death of Stephen 'tWitch' Boss.
The 36-year-old 'So You Think You Can Dance' judge has reflected on how even her professional life changed after he took his own life aged 40 in December 2022, with "some opportunities" falling through because she suddenly wasn't "what brands were looking for".
Appearing on SoFi's 'Richer Lives' talk show, she said: "I had to allow some brands or some opportunities that were in the works, I had to let some of them go.
“I had to be grateful that I had the chance to talk with those people and also understand that what they received was not what they signed up for.
"We were always the happy go lucky couple with a beautiful family, and now when people saw me at that moment, they saw sadness, and that's not what brands were looking for.
“I kind of became unhirable for a moment, and contracts that were existing were like, that's not what we signed up for and I had to be like, I understand, because it's also not what I signed up for. So I can't be mad at them. I understood.”
Allison - who had kids Zaiai, four, Maddox, eight, with her late husband, while he adopted her 16-year-old daughter Weslie - admitted there were financial struggles after his death, and much more to deal with "besides just emotion".
She explained: "Financially, the day after my husband's passing, I was immediately having to take meetings about taxes, about contracts that were existing and that he was at breach of contract.
“Now are those contracts going to exist? Where will my income come from now that he's out of breach of contract because a lot of our businesses were together?”
Despite her grief, she had to still take on the "role" and tackle the meetings, which gave her another outlet to help her try and move on.
She added: "I took that role and I said, ‘You know what this is actually, what's gonna help me survive… This is really, really hard, but I think this is a gift from the universe'.
"Being like, you need to fix this, this is gonna help you grieve at the same time, take care of everything and don't look back.
“I was not going to be a person that grieves first and then does it after as I can't lose more.”
