A common delusion among the mentally ill is to think they are being played on screen. But for me it is really happening, or I’m pretty sure it is. My memoir of returning to the Orkney islands and recovery from alcoholism has been adapted into a feature film.
Late at night, in bed with my laptop close to my face, I watch movie star Saoirse Ronan’s face reflected in her onscreen laptop, and I am looking into a weird mirror. The character she’s playing is based on me, and making this film has been like going through the looking glass.
