Rylan Clark has opened out about his "awful" year in which his marriage broke down and he sank into a deep depression.
The star, 33, appeared on The One Show to chat about his new memoir, and spoke of how difficult it was to write about his break up with husband of five years Dan.
Things got so bad he even tried to end his own life after coming clean to Dan about cheating “years ago”, he tells readers in the book.
This evening, Rylan discussed with Alex Jones and Roman Kemp why his memoir opened with his marriage split.
He said, gesturing to Alex: "Just to get it out of the way. Obviously last year was awful and we were speaking a lot and One Show actually, hosting, was one of the first thing that I properly got back into with you after I got quite ill last year."
The It Takes Two also spoke about how difficult it was writing honestly about the dark time in his life.
He said: “It was harder writing about it than actually living in it which is quite strange.
"Because I started writing the book before my marriage ended and then all of a sudden I am writing the book and the book becomes a different book because it's a massive part of my life."
Rylan went on: "There was things that I were going to put in the book that I ended up didn't from a legal point of view and not that it was anything salacious, just things like I would receive a text saying x, y, z and the legal team would be like 'can you just show us that text so we can prove it if ever' and I was like 'sure' and just scrolling back, 'I can't do this', so I took it out because I didn't want to live it.
"I got so ill last year that I don't need to do that."
In an extract from his book Ten: The Decade That Changed My Life, which has been published by The Sun, Rylan says he knew when he started experiencing suicidal thoughts that it was time to get help.
"I sat Mum down and told her I needed to be locked up.
"I said, ‘I can’t do it any more.’ I could see in her eyes that she couldn’t believe what was happening to her baby. She called my big brother Jamie and my managers and they arranged for me to go to a mental health hospital where they knew I would be well looked after."
After spending a week in hospital, Rylan came home and moved in with his mum, but after another spell of bad thoughts, was admitted to hospital again.
The turning point came when his mum secretly arranged for his 'showbiz step-parents' Eamonn Holmes and Ruth Langsford to visit him, he said.
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