A mum has said she feels like she's "losing her mind" every time she thinks about the death of her daughter.
Semina Halliwell died on June 12, 2021, after spending four nights in the hospital. The year seven pupil at Stanley High School in Southport took her own life after an interview with police, mum Rachel claims. Monday will be the second anniversary of her death and Rachel said she has not found closure and will "never be able to move on".
Semina, who was 12 at the time of her death, claimed she was raped by an older boy who she said had groomed her over Snapchat. Rachel wants her daughter to be remembered for the funny and kind person she was but relives the pain of losing her every day.
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Rachel told the ECHO: "I can't find the words to describe how I feel, if I was to think about it now, I go back to those feelings. That's scary because I feel like it's almost happening now. It's happening again and I relive every minute, it is a parent's worst nightmare.
"She asked the doctor 'am I going to die?'. I will never forget that. If I go back to that place I'll lose my mind, it was horrific what she went through."
Rachel said she finds it hard to go upstairs in her family home and has not set foot in her daughter's bedroom since her death. The tangible link to Semina is still too hard to bear.
Rachel said: "I just find it so difficult because that was her bedroom, the place that she loved and at the same time it is the place where she took her life. To come home without her and see the drink of orange juice she had left on the side with her clothes, jewellery, and school uniform still there.
"Her portrait hangs on the landing, it is 12 feet by six feet, now I just like to look at her from a distance at the bottom of the stairs. I feel the same as I did last year, it is no different I have never moved on."
However, Rachel said she has found solace in the outpouring of support after Semina's death and it helps her to keep going. She said: “It means the world to me because it's my daughter. Because to me they are honouring her life. That means the world to me even if I say thank you a thousand times.
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“She was my only daughter and I still can’t believe that I produced something so beautiful, I was so proud of her. She was stunning and everyone would comment on how beautiful she was.
“Now I think about all the holidays we would have had together if she was still alive and about what she would look like now. She will never go to prom or get married, I’ll never see her do any of those things."
On Sunday, June 11, a plaque will be unveiled at the Botanic Gardens in Southport to honour Semina's life which Rachel said was her "favourite place in the world". However, the heartbroken mum will have to wait more than two years for answers surrounding the death of her 12-year-old daughter. A pre-inquest hearing into Semina's death was held on Friday, February 3. Rachel previously explained how she is waiting until another hearing in July.
Rachel said: "I just want her to be remembered for the funny, loving, and, kind girl she was. She had the most infectious laugh and she was just beautiful... I will never give up fighting for my daughter."
Merseyside Police has previously told the ECHO: "The matter is currently being considered by the Sefton, Knowsley, and St Helens coroner, and as such it is not appropriate for Merseyside Police to comment on any of the substantive issues raised at this time, as we would not wish to prejudice the coronial investigation. However, we have, and are, co-operating fully with the coroner in this matter.
“A formal complaint relating to the police investigation has been received and the concerns expressed are being investigated by the force’s Professional Standards Department. We have informed the Independent Office for Police Conduct and are keeping them updated."
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