New mum Molly-Mae Hague has shown her vulnerability after breaking down in tears on the struggle of motherhood.
The social media influencer, 23, said she’s struggling and overwhelmed by motherhood and everything that comes with it.
She welcomed her baby girl with her boyfriend boxer Tommy Fury earlier this year and has been documenting her journey as a first-time mum, The Mirror reported.
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But on Sunday, she broke down on YouTube, admitting how hard the fourth trimester was for her.
“I’m trying to be transparent and real about the last two months of my life but I’m also really scared to do that,” she told her followers.
“I feel like what I’m saying isn’t making sense and I just feel like my brain is jumble and just not my brain anymore. I just don’t feel myself,” she added.
She said she wants more than anything to get back to doing YouTube videos but is “overwhelmed” by all that has been going on.
Between tears, she said: “I’m so bunged up because I’m so run down and I can’t get myself better because, obviously, mum life.
“This is not the video I had in mind today, but I felt as though I have to post something.”
She admitted that she feels traumatised by the first few days after the birth of her child.
“I will never ever be able to explain what I went through in that first week," she said.
She showed a picture of herself looking very tired to highlight her message to fans.
“I physically couldn’t eat. Every time I had the opportunity to go to sleep when my family were watching Bambi, I felt physically sick. Every time I tried to sleep, my body couldn’t understand that I was letting it rest.”
She said she had severe constipation in the first few weeks.
“It had been about nine days and I hadn’t been for a poo. The feeling was taking over my whole body, I was literally going green. I physically couldn’t go. I was so messed up down there [from the vaginal birth] that I’d lost all ability to push.”
She said how she had a severe urinary tract infection also at that time.
Molly-Mae described the positive feelings she experienced when her boyfriend Tommy returned home from his boxing match against Jake Paul, where he came out on top.
“All my friends and family wanted to be around and I just wanted Tommy or I didn’t want anyone. I pushed everyone away and looking back now, I think that was completely the wrong thing to do and I wish I hadn’t done that.”
She gave thanks to fans for their loyal support, offering a special shoutout to her fellow mums who she hoped would know the position she is in.
“I’m sure my other mums watching this video right now will hopefully be able to relate and understand why I am such a state, and why it’s the most overwhelming subject to talk about because you genuinely do have that many feelings and emotions and things to talk about," she added.
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