Malin Andersson has told how giving birth to her baby girl triggered the past trauma of losing her first born child.
The TV star welcomed baby Xaya safely but the tots arrival stirred up emotions after the heartbreaking loss of her first born daughter Consy, who died four and a half weeks after her birth in 2019.
Malin was understandably anxious throughout her second pregnancy as she feared 'something bad would happen' and was rushed for an emergency C-section but fortunately her healthy baby arrived in late January this year.
And sharing exclusively to OK she revealed she felt the presence of Consy was with her during Xaya's birth as a 'guardian angel' looking down on her and telling her "it will all be alright".
Recalling her labour she said: "I was in the exact same hospital – in the exact same room – that I’d given birth to Consy in. I lay there, terrified, on the operating table being completely triggered by traumatic memories.
"Jared was worried too as my heart rate kept dropping, but he put his head next to mine and comforted me."
But despite her concerns Malin, who split from partner Jared soon after the birth, was overjoyed when Xaya arrived and immediately stared crying.
She recalled: "The next minute, they pulled her from me and she immediately started crying," she tells us. "It was the biggest relief because with Consy’s birth, she didn’t make a sound.
"Holding her in my arms for the first time was magical – the most beautiful feeling ever."
And after returning home to recover she had time to reflect on her birth as she described the new arrival as 'bitter sweet'.
Sharing a heartwarming black and white snap on social media in the weeks after giving birth to Xaya, new-mum Malin wrote: "I ended up having an emergency C-section with her, they took her out of the same scar Consy came from.. that was a bittersweet experience for me which I needed to take in after.
"I can’t even describe the amount of love she has given us, and how it feels to be a mum again - but to a healthy baby. I look at her and I have to pinch myself."
Malin's first child Cosney was born prematurely at 27 weeks and she kissed her goodbye four and a half weeks later in a heartbreaking loss.
Malin told New Magazine: "I’ve felt lonely for a long time, especially since my mum died, and have lived with an overwhelming sense of pain for years. But now I’ve got love. Xaya filled a massive void."
