Louise Thompson says she hopes she's starting "actual recovery" after suffering complications while giving birth in November.
The Made In Chelsea star, 31, was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder after having her son, Leo-Hunter, who she shares with Ryan Libbey.
After a terrifying ordeal, Louise revealed that "one ended up in NICU and the other ended up in ICU" and told fans she'd 'danced with death twice'.
In what is her first Instagram post since speaking about the effect the birth had on her, Louise revealed that little Leo was now 15 weeks old.
She wrote: "Where the hell have the last three months gone? Leo turns 15 weeks today and my brain can't comprehend it.
"The last time I properly opened up about my trauma was on the 15th of January and I haven't felt strong enough to talk about it since. If I could use a few words to describe the past month they would be: SCARED, CONFUSED, PARALYSED, AND TOTALLY OUT OF CONTROL.
"I thought that living in hospital for a month was the worst time of my life. Wow I was wrong. I had control over my mind then.
"Something happened about a month ago where my mind and body came crashing down in tandem. I guess I had been in self preservation mode/survival mode up until that point. Then the real mental health hell began."
Louise said she's come to terms with the fact her life may "never be the same again", adding: "but things honestly can’t get any worse than they’ve been over the past month, so hopefully I’m at the beginning of my actual recovery."
The new mum told her followers she hoped her experience would encourage others to keep going, writing: "DON’T GIVE UP. JUST KEEP LIVING. ONE MORE DAY.”
Louise shot to fame in the first series of Made In Chelsea in 2011.
Her fiancé Ryan joined the cast in 2016, before the pair got engaged in 2018.
