Louise Thompson admitted thinking she was "going to die" during her terrifying hospital trip where she lost "a lot of blood".
The reality TV star, 32 - best known for being on Made in Chelsea - revealed to fans just a few days ago that she had ended up in hospital recently.
Her fiancé Ryan Libbey, 32, later said she'd "haemorrhaged at home, again". He said she was "rushed to hospital for surgery" and was monitored for four days before returning home.
Louise - who shares son Leo, one, with Ryan - has spoken about her hospital visit in a lengthy caption on Instagram today, alongside a video of a "burning ritual" at her home.
The footage showed Ryan and Leo waving at a firepit in their garden, with Louise telling her followers on the platform that they were "burning bad memories" in the flames.
She wrote in the caption: "Gosh the last few days have been a rollercoaster. From thinking I was going to die again, to being allowed home all in the space of a few days. What a whirlwind. Not sure I'm quite ready to digest it to be honest.
"Emergency scenarios are a wild ride. You get no prep time. It's just bam, zero to hero in a matter of minutes … or hours if you're lucky. It does strange things to your mind.
"The emotions are mental, from an adrenalin fuelled ambulance phone call, to freeze (what I think might help, but obviously does nothing to prevent blood flow/loss), to laughter, to tears, to anger, to shouting, to apologising, to guilt. Powerful stuff. Just when I was doing really well too."
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Louise said she's going to try not to "wallow in self pity," adding that being a parent and caring about her family means that she doesn't "really have time to collapse into a heap and start processing".
She said: "You have to put on your big girl pants, and be strong, which is hard when you crave being nurtured like a child yourself … Actually the fact I'm even saying this is a good thing."
Discussing her health, she said: "It's really strange, but I've been physically ok(ish) for months and months, and then bam something really bad happened to my body again.
"I lost a lot a lot of blood. I think around 3L which sounds like over half my body's supply … although I have to bear in mind I'm also really small. "
Louise recalled having the "typical weird trauma responses" in hospital, citing examples like "floods of hysterical tears," "catastrophic death feelings" and confusion.
She added: "I'm not going to let this hold me back. I've learnt a lot from the last year and I feel in a much sounder headspace than last year so fingers crossed."
"I have to say, I am one damn strong cookie. And I have to hold on to the fact that our bodies are remarkable and can heal from such extraordinary brutal things. I can and will heal from this," she said.
She added: "Thanks to doctors and medicine and those dedicated to those improving medicine and science'y stuff for keeping me alive".
Louise has been open about her health in the past too, like having discussed experiencing "serious complications" and been in the intensive care unit after Leo's birth in 2021.
More recently, she told fans that she had been diagnosed with lupus. She shared the news in December last year and said her symptoms include "intolerable joint pain".
She has yet to detail the circumstances of her most recent hospitalisation.
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