Kirk Noceoss opened up about his battle with PTSD in an emotionally charged live TV interview about his dad Mick who committed suicide last year.
Kirk appeared on Loose Women on Thursday in support of the ITV show's 'Stand By Your Man' campaign and talked openly about how he coped with his dad's death.
Mick, 57, who starred on TOWIE alongside Kirk and owned the famous Sugar Hut club in Essex, tragically took his own life at his home in Bulphan in January last year, with son Kirk the person who found his body.
Kirk bravely opened up about the day that will be ingrained in his thoughts forever during his appearance on Loose Women, telling host Charlene White and panellists Denise Welch, Nadia Sawalha and Jane Moore that he'd seen Mick that morning for breakfast and gone through some of his new business ideas with him.
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The alarm was raised by Mick's partner after she couldn't get in touch with him and, recalling how he knew straight away that something was gravely wrong, Kirk said: "I do not know why but I knew what had happened. I don't know why."
As Kirk struggled to get his words out, Nadia, giving him some support old Kirk: "You're doing brilliantly. It must be have been very difficult for you. You went round there with this feeling..."
Kirk continued: "We knew he'd locked himself in the house and I just smashed through the door. I found him.
"I gave him CPR but I knew he was gone. I knew.
"It was like my life ended but I had so much to do at the same time. I just thought 'what would my dad have done in that situation?'"
Kirk then told the Loose Women panel he'd been diagnosed with PTSD in the aftermath of Mick's death.
He explained: "I've had flashbacks of how I found my father. It's like, I don't know if you've seen the war films where the soldiers have PTSD and you see the flashbacks of the gun fights.
"I've been walking down the road and it's like 'bang,"; it's in my dreams."
Opening up on how he's been coping, Kirk, who said he believed he 'became a man' the day his dad died, added: "I talk about it. I tell my friends.
"Knowing the carnage that it's caused and knowing that my dad didn't have to do that.
"No-one has to do that I promise you. If you're in a relationship , you can get another relationship. If you've lost all your money, you can get more money. If you've lost your job, you can get another job."
He ended: "Everyone that's watching this, you have survived 100% of your bad days. So why can't you survive more of them?"
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