Katie Melua feared she wouldn't be able to make music again after she suffered an acute psychotic episode in her twenties.
The 'Closest Thing to Crazy’ singer, 40, suffered a mental health breakdown in 2010 and took a lengthy break from her music career before returning with the album 'Secret Symphony' in 2012.
Asked if she contemplated leaving music, she told the 'Origins With Cush Jumbo' podcast: "Oh no, I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to do it.
"I was afraid that, what if for whatever reason I'm not allowed to do it, or I can't do it. I was worried about that, but thankfully that didn't happen at all. It was my saviour."
Katie never wants to stop making music for as long as she lives because of how therapeutic it is.
She said: "I really want to make records until the day that I die, honestly."
Katie spent six weeks in a rehabilitation hospital and is equipped with the "tools" to deal with her triggers.
She said: "I remember one of the therapy tools that I got from hospital was like, take one day at a time."
Katie previously recalled how “petrifying” the episode was and admitted it was a “huge wake-up call”.
She told The Independent: "It was petrifying, but it put a stop to fantasies of being able to do anything. The oddest thing about this job is the sense of superiority you get. It was a huge wake-up call. I was completely out of it for two weeks, and in hospital for six. There was a bunch of things going on, things at home and crazy work schedules, and you really believe the world revolved around you and it doesn't.”
Katie also told The Daily Telegraph of her scary symptoms: “I was completely out of it. Not unconscious, but having really terrible paranoia. I couldn’t sleep for I don’t know how many days and was having really chronic nightmares, like you’re in an apocalyptic film.”
