Kate Lawler revealed she had an abortion at the age of 37 as she wasn't ready to be a mother.
The Big Brother star, 41, met her fiancé Martin (who she affectionately calls Boj) in 2013 and almost immediately shared that she didn't want to have children.
Boj, on the other hand, wanted to start a family which sometimes caused issues in their early relationship together.
Around the time the couple bought their first flat together and she started her job at Virgin Radio, Kate ended up having an abortion.
"It was an upsetting time because I knew Boj wanted to be a dad," she explained. "I felt sad too because I thought if I don’t want a baby now, am ever going to want one?"
Kate thought Boj might have been upset by the news but ended up supporting her and telling her it 'probably wasn't the right time'.
She told The Times : "He didn’t resent me and wasn’t angry. It meant so much to have his support.
"I thought not wanting a baby might end up breaking us up. It had been seven years of me being firmly on the child-free side of the fence to then being a bit ambivalent and wondering what life with a child would be like."
Things took a turn when the coronavirus first hit. Not only did the couple have to postpone their wedding, but Kate also ended up changing her stance on not wanting children.
She was 40 at that point and found out she was pregnant. She 'knew she was ready'.
Kate and Martin welcomed their beautiful baby girl into the world in February last year.
Announcing the arrival of their little one, Martin took to his Instagram Story to write: "Hi everyone, sorry for the radio silence, it's been a long day.
"Nuchky is fine, fit and healthy, as is Kate. We had a bit of complication but Nuchky is ok and on the quick mend and will be with us tomorrow, all being good."
He added: "Nuchky is gorgeous and has lots of hair which make me think Kate definitely has a hairy lover out there."
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Earlier this month, Kate opened up about feeling suicidal following the birth of her daughter.
At one point she admitted to coming close to shaking baby Noa. In her new book, Maybe Baby, she opened up about the experience.
She said: "With depression, you think: ‘I don’t understand why I’m having these feelings when I have so much to be happy about. I’ve got a roof over my head and I’ve got a family and a partner who loves me and I’ve got my dogs and a job, and I’ve got a baby who’s healthy.’
"You can’t really understand it, but there were many times when I sat in the nursery feeling so low that I wanted to kill myself. I thought: ‘I don’t want to be here any more. I’ve ruined my life. I’ve ruined Boj’s life.’ And I had never had that before. I started Googling suicide rates in new mums and it’s terrifying."
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