Kate Lawler has revealed that her fiancé Martin ‘Boj’ Bojtos booked them into couples' therapy after previously saying she resented him for making her have a baby.
The 41-year-old former Big Brother contestant has been sharing her very honest opinions about motherhood and a future as a married woman after welcoming her first child with 38-year-old Boj in February last year.
Kate has been a beacon of honesty for many young mothers as she has shunned sharing only the good parts of becoming a first time mum and has been an open book about her experience of postnatal depression.
Kate and Boj are due to tie-the-knot after becoming engaged 2018 – and the reality star’s husband to be took some steps to ensure their marriage would be off to a strong start, although Kate admits she feared the worst.
Opening up to Closer magazine, Kate said: “Boj booked us couple’s therapy and I was like, ‘You want to break up with me!’ but he explained that he wanted us to start our marriage on the right foot – and it’s helped.”
In the same interview, Kate went on to explain that she is showering her daughter, Noa, with love as she continues to build strength after hitting rock bottom.
She said: “With every month that goes by, I feel better and Noa brings us so much joy, but there are times when I get teary because as a mum you juggle so much, and put everyone else first.
“Before Noa, I was so independent and enjoyed my freedom, so it’s taking time to adjust to a different lifestyle.”
She also explained that she is ruling out any future kids, saying: “I’m going to love Noa so much, I can give her absolutely everything and she has a loving family, which is all she needs.”
Kate went on to warn that other new parents should be wary of social media and comparing their own experiences with the “highlights reel” of lives they will witness online.
She says she wants to speak up about her personal struggles as she knows other parents will feel the same way and that it’s important to remember that being a parent involves lows as well as highs.
Kate previously said she felt suicidal after welcoming Noa in February last year.
She said: "With depression, you think: ‘I don’t understand why I’m having these feelings when I have so much to be happy about. I’ve got a roof over my head and I’ve got a family and a partner who loves me and I’ve got my dogs and a job, and I’ve got a baby who’s healthy.’
"You can’t really understand it, but there were many times when I sat in the nursery feeling so low that I wanted to kill myself. I thought: ‘I don’t want to be here any more. I’ve ruined my life. I’ve ruined Boj’s life.’ And I had never had that before. I started Googling suicide rates in new mums and it’s terrifying."
She went on to say she had feared her feeling for Boj would also change due to motherhood.
She confessed: "Then I was thinking: ‘For so long I resisted the idea of having a child because I knew I would feel like this.’ That was really hard to deal with, because I would feel resentment towards Boj. He is a saint for putting up with me, because I was so miserable.
"I’m very lucky to have a partner who’s really in tune with how I’m feeling — he can tell. I can’t believe he’s still with me and still wants to marry me."
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