Brett and Belinda Beasley wish no-one knew their son Jack's name.
But after he was callously stabbed to death on the Gold Coast three years ago, at just 17, they don't want anyone to forget it.
"The thing is that when you lose a loved one, that loved one is never coming home," Brett Beasley told the ABC from the Gold Coast home where he raised his two sons.
"The sad reality of it is Jack, he's never coming back and as much as we'd give up everything to have him here, it's never going to happen — so we just have to keep his name alive."
Since the family was reluctantly thrust into the public eye in 2019, a foundation they started in Jack's honour has been working to stop other families living the same nightmare.
"People say: 'You're so brave,'" Belinda said.
"It's not that we're brave, it's just that you don't have a choice. This is our life and we've got to live it. We didn't ask for it.
"I would like some mornings not to get out of bed, but you've got to drag your backside out of bed and get on and try and make Jack proud. I mean, that's how we've got to … look at it."
Emotional toll
The cost of trying to stop youth knife crime weighs heavy on the parents who lost their son.
"We are now on a mission to try and raise that awareness and stop these kids from carrying weapons," Brett said.
"We want to keep doing what we're doing but it's just hard to keep re-living it all over again.
"When we go to the schools and Belinda's got to watch the video footage over and over … that's hard. People don't realise how hard it is to keep doing what we're doing."
Belinda said the hope of making things better was what kept them going.
"If we can stop another family from having to go through what we went through, then it's going to be worth it," she said.
Despite all the work they've done, things don't get any easier during the holiday period.
Jack was stabbed on December 13, 2019, his funeral was on December 23 and they brought his ashes home on Christmas Eve, Brett explained.
"You could be walking up the street and be fine and then you would see one thing and just end up in tears," Belinda said.
"We used to have the big Christmas tree and everything but it's not really much to celebrate anymore and Mitch [Jack's brother] is getting older. It was always good when the two boys were younger."
Five teenagers were charged over their role in Jack's death.
Ma-Mal-J Toala and two teens – aged 16 at the time of Jack's death – were acquitted of manslaughter and grievous bodily harm by the Queensland Supreme Court in July.
Another teen pleaded guilty in May to murder and two counts of committing a malicious act with intent.
A second teen – now 19 – pleaded guilty in April to manslaughter and two counts of grievous bodily harm.
Don't blame the judges
Brett said the court process was not set up to support victims.
"Unfortunately, a lot of people blame the judges, but they've got their hands tied because they have to abide by the law," he said.
"The law is the law and the law is what needs changing."
After Jack's death, Brett and Belinda tirelessly campaigned for a wanding trial in Gold Coast's safe night precinct, which allows police to stop and search people for concealed weapons.
Jack's Law
New legislation to expand the trial, known as Jack's Law, has now been introduced into parliament.
"We fought for that and it's absolutely paramount for the whole of Queensland and we hope it's going to save lives," Brett said.
The Beasleys, who were recently given $100,000 by the state government to go towards their work with the Jack Beasley Foundation, plan to expand their program into schools in New South Wales to encourage young people to "live life without a knife".
"It's something that we wanted to do to keep Jack's name alive," Brett said.
"We wanted people to know who Jack was because we're all sick and tired of hearing in the news about all these kids getting stabbed to death by kids.
"We just said: 'Well, our son's not going to be just another one of them … he was too good a kid.'"
