The question I feel I am unable to give 100% to anything. When I say anything, I mean my business, friendships, parenting, my relationship or any other task that is given to me or taken on by me. I don’t feel the urge to put in enough effort. It seems I’m fine about losing people, business, money or anything (so long as it doesn’t leave me destitute). I do fear a bit when things are just about to go, but then somehow it turns out OK. I don’t feel close to my parents. I make most decisions based on what needs to be done, rather than what I feel like doing.
I somehow don’t make the decision to sell up my business, because it just goes on. I take a huge amount of time in making decisions. I am always in two minds. I fear what the decision could turn out to be. I eventually take a decision when time has almost run out.
