I can’t stop myself buying colourful packets of seeds

‘Over the next few weeks I will start to think about what we will sow where and when’: saved marigold seed. Photograph: Allan Jenkins

February, the month I may regret not planting onions, garlic and shallots. If only for a few moments when I see my neighbours’ new shoots. I don’t think I’ve yet recovered from decay disappointment. My expectant hopes dashed like a childhood Christmas.

I still scan sites and adverts, though. I forward links to Howard with wistful question marks. To eloquent silence.